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6 Signs Showing You've Lost Control of Your Dependence

6 Signs Showing You've Lost Control of Your Dependence

How can you tell when you are already overwhelmed by your addiction? Having a life with addiction could be a very difficult time.

I went through a phase of unending apprehension, desolation and mental disturbance; during this phase, I felt tortured but then my breakthrough came, I got back on my feet and became the captain of my ship. It felt like the end of the world to me, there was nothing bigger than the worries of myself.


When I began using I felt like all of my fears were rendered inactive.


All of my worries and challenges abruptly mixed and disappeared throughout that overpowering feeling of fake happiness and gladness that finally lead to my gravest moment.

The period before I enrolled in a remedial program remains one of the toughest periods of my addiction. Not being capable to accept I had an issue was what took charge of my daily and made me dig like a madman in my own mind searching for exemptions and arguments to justify my attitude, till I ultimately recognised it had carried away all things I worried about, every person I ever adored and every dream I ever had.


The Following Are The 6 Signs That Opened My Understanding Making Me Realise How I Lost Control Over My Life

  • Life appears to be just doom and dark

When I consumed, I lost count of how much of it I took, but both my feelings and my life did not get any better. Depression assumed control me like an overwhelming cover that prevented me from moving in any heading. All things appeared to be a foregone cause and the feeling of sorrow I began experiencing could juts be contrasted with the let-down I understood I was inducing to my adorable ones. Everything appeared to be an acts of futility and the feeling of disappointment I began feeling must be contrasted and the failure I knew I was bringing about to my friends and family. It was like life's sole business was to make me remember how many errors I had committed and how much I was causing pain to everyone close to me. It was a ceaseless cycle where gloom and uneasiness passed the ball onto each other's court and my exclusive way out was to expand the sum I was utilizing. Apparently, by taking more and more frequently, the spiral of the destruction of oneself which I actively participated in took its darkest and heaviest turn and made me feel I was approaching the critical'point'at'which'turning back'or'reversal'is impossible. At this point, the verbosity and the depression in life became such a heavy load that even in spite of the fact that I was taking to avoid, it was just driving me harder into dependence.

  • All that you think about blurs away until you lose it

Some of the people I had close to me during my time as a stoner were present to support me till the very end, and for this, I'm so grateful. Some others couldn't take it any longer and left for good since they could just not see how my addiction functioned. Because of the lowest point I hit, I lost some people that actually cared about me and wanted to help me going through hard times, I just made them leave. I turned out to be so visually impaired with simply getting the following hit, that I let it eclipse everything else. I skipped work because I just could not and would not go. I avoid meeting people I loved because I could not imagine myself without using for a long time, it tied me down. Life contracted itself to only a certain something, and that extremely one thing was what killed the lights throughout my life to the point where I lost all that I once thought about.

  • You lose control over your life

At no point in time have self-discipline been a positive attribute of mine. When I was utilizing, I cant even recall how many occasions I told myself it was the final time. Each of those moments lead to me believing how it would be well to just apply a small portion more as a "goodbye" to the substances. Dejection and anxiety assumed and I could not anymore confront any person or view individuals in the eye without feeling sorrow. I hid in my room all the time, disregarding every other duty. When bills arrived they began to accumulate on the table. During sometimes the phone wouldn't cease calling because everyone comprehended there was something amiss happening in my life; I simply didn't need to say to them they were saying the truth. Not even the time, place or even the quantity I took.

  • You use lies as shields for your problems

This was possibly the thing that caused matters tougher than what they could've been. My worry of being evaluated or cast out caused me deceive so often that in the end, it was virtually hard to maintain all the things I had created just to be in a position to fulfil my dependence. Financially I was a mess; I kept accumulating debts. Dependence was destroying my life in various ways, financially, emotionally and biologically. I never cherished my body rather I violated it. I began to starve myself, paid no attention to how I look and then a severe form of emaciation set in, and since everyone was aware I was facing difficult situations they tried to assist me in any form, rather my lies kept them at bay. It created a yet even larger and stronger wall between me and myself. I convinced myself to keep using until it feels like somebody else got into me, tons of excuses I told myself that it is okay to keep using.

  • You follow after getting high to prevent withdrawal

Pull-out is one of the depressive phases for an addict. The anxiety and all those different emotions that enable all things feel like hell is something that I needed to get as distant as I could. I was utilizing to never lose that high feeling because I understood what came after and I couldn't handle it. It results in an avoidable lust to use again and again. I was defeated by the situation that pushed me to take the easy way, by using again. Everything degenerated even further since my body adapted to the dosage I took.

  • I lacked interest in everything apart from drugs.

After all the exemptions were said. Every one of the ties with friends and family were cut by me. All my worries became real and I bothered no more about anything else other than getting intoxicated. I told everyone who wanted to help me to go away and that they could not save me, but some people who really cared about me and understood my addiction waited for the right time to reach and help me. I was neck deep into drugs that I had no interest whatever in anything else. My boss sacked me, my fellow workers desisted from calling, almost all of my family gradually lost hope and tried to move on.


At this stage, words from the ones I cherished the most began to bob inside my head. When I thought everything was lost, when I trusted that I had wound up in a sorry situation, I understood I required help and there were sufficient around to help me move out of that dull and profound well I had fallen into.


My involvement in drugs can be regarded as one of the difficult phases of my life and is the toughest things my loved ones have ever faced. I think things could've been somehow simpler on every person if we all understood a bit more concerning what dependence implies not only to the dependent but as well to the family. While I was blinded by the addiction, the people that cared about me consistently waited outside the well to save me because they identified these signs before me.

My family and I survived that dark period due to our closeness and perseverance.


Initially, it all looked gloomy, yet I got into a remedial program which provided insight on living a cheerful and drug-free life, and this assisted me to live with myself and apologise for my wrongs without reproach. It was intense, I won't lie, yet I'm truly glad that I wasn't the only one and that despite everything I have individuals who had faith in me until I was back on track.

Identifying these signs can bring a significant change into the life of a user, allowing them to understand that you still care irrespective of how sore things may turn out can be what will eventually light up the path to sobriety.